Today's Not The Same

Soo I Got No Mod At All . Not Mad , Not Sad , Not Angry , Not Happy , Just Depressed.. First I Haven't Seen Naj about 4 days already and I Don't Know How She feels About Me , Is She Gonna Be Sad Or Angry Or Mad Or Hate Me... Just To Many Question

Second I Wanted To Go Chong Hok Something2 Tampat Jual Cd Because I Want To Buy Prison Break , Beauty And The Geek , Topgear , Heroes , sweet 16 , American Got Talents And Many More.. Then My Father Didn't Gave Me Money.. I Only Got $20 Its Not Enough..

Third Zifah Is Asking Me Question About Something And I Can't Explain To her Whats On My Mind.. Its Just That Im Not Ready.. I Don't Even Know If She Was Serious Just Now.. I Thought She Have Someone Else Like Limin , Aizat or Zul Or Alex... I Don't Know Why Did She Picked Me? Im Not The Best.. But I Appricate It.. Haven't Finish Talking With Her YET

Fourth , Ugama School The Place I Hate Most.. But I Try To Act Happy Just Now.. People Say Im Too Sensetive.. Bila Dorang Ucap Sikit Aku Mrah or Tagur.. Haha Then Today I Try Not To.. Soo Ada Tia CNajib.. Mengucap Family Ku Gay.. Aku Gay.. Kawan Ku Gay.. Bapa Ku Gay.. Urgh Gila.. I Don't I Think I want To Fight With Him.. Because I Don't Want Him To Tell The Teachers.. And Twist The Real Story Like Last Time..

Fifth . What Is Happening To Me.. I Have No Respect.. Not Polite.. Not Smart.. Not Patient.. Not Studying.. Im Soo Not The Same As What Other People Is.. They Got A Happy Family.. Not Like Mine.. I Got No One To Talk To At Home.. I Barely See My Sister And My Twin Brother.. Im Always Away From Home.. I Always been Kicked Out Of My Parents Room.. My little Brothers And Sister Is Trying To Destroying Me By Blaming Something I Didn't Do.. My Family Is Like Leaving Me.. Cool Down.. I Get Over It

Sixth , Iloveyou... Im Depressed About That.. You Know Zifah.. I Do.. But That Only reason I Didn't Ask You... Is Because You Got Someone else.. Some other Guys... I can't Find Another Girl.. That's Like You... Its Depressing...

I Would Like To Let You Go But I Will Be In Misery.. If Leaving You Makes You Happy.. Every Second Of My Misery is Worth For You Being Happy.. I Should Be Happy Also With Miseries Inside